Each sunrise is a opportunity to make things better.
I feel like I’m reinventing the wheel with this journey that I have reentered again. However, it’s not about reinventing what I am doing. I am reinventing MYSELF and HOW I am going to travel through this journey. I started this online business, blogging, who even knows what I was doing journey just about a year ago. I thought “I can do this, too.” “Look at all these people working and making money online, starting businesses, sharing their story. If they can do it, I can certainly do it.”
Here’s what I learned about this…these people all possessed one thing I didn’t have. It wasn’t more intelligence. It wasn’t more money to start. It wasn’t more time. It was confidence. Not only did I find myself going deeper and deeper in debt, stressing over finances. I found myself losing who I was-mentally and emotionally. In all my 40 years of life, I don’t ever think I’ve cried as much as I have in the past few months than my entire life. And the worst part is, I am cognitively aware of this-which sucks more. I hit a true dark space that I know people can hit, have heard people go through, and always thought “my god, how can someone actually feel that way about themselves.” Well, now I know because I am it. I was it.
I want to share my stories and my journey with you through my career, through my family, marriage, continuing of building my education that supports my career, and mental health. I know there are many mommas like me who want to make their children’s lives better, their family’s life better, their financial life better, but also their own life. As moms we tend to push ourselves to the back burner and just become this robotic figure who goes through the motions of everything. I was told “we just want a mom and a wife.” WTF does that mean? Does that mean I can’t be me? Does that mean I can’t be who I want to be because I am living through everyone else in my house? And that’s where that STOPS and this journey STARTS. It’s time to find me. It’s time to let me find my happiness. Time to push the feeling of defeat, sadness, and guilt. It’s time for things to change. Time for me to find me.
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